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Saturday, June 19, 2004
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haiz.....2dae was a totally screwed up day. So many unpleasent things happened. Well, went to school as normal for investiture rehersal. Was a combined rehersal wif the 27th. At first,everything went on fine, all of us were happily sitting there looking at the elects and commenting on the so many things they haf to improve on (guess last yr we were also like tat). Haha but most of us agreed that they will learn through their coming council journey. Nvm, then we went through our part of the investiture, well, i should sae that with all the many experiences we had, we haf met up wif the expectations. Yea, seemed like it shows how capable our council are yea...
But definately not when conflicts start to build up when among ourselves, we were commenting on changing the entrance song. Well, i guess to be more specific, it was between Solico and Aesthec.Solico wans to haf something more loud like Jamilia's Superstar, but Aesthec feels that to go with the 27th solemness for the investiture, we should stay with classical music or instrumental jazz.
yurpz, so the commotion started, knew that my fellow Aesthec members were realli unhappi abt that. They were even angrier when they heard Andre scold Aesthec 'fucked up'. Bloody hell~! I mean its okay if we dun see things from the same point of view, but there's no need to scold vulgarities at us ritz~! Who will not be angry when someone scold ur commitee like that~
Think back on my own stand, I really feel that they realli take things too serious and too harsh lorz~ I mean, we were not against your idea, juz suggested that lets take a vote. I mean is it fair that u guys can choose to stand up for what u tink is better and we can't??? Moreover, arn't it all for making OUR investiture a better wan for the school to remember us??? FOr mi, I realli tried to be the peacemaker like what I haf always been lorz, After the disagreement, i tried to calm Hsing Chieh , Xinhui they all down and juz put things back to normal...But then it realli do piss mi off when u scold us like that~ RIGHT IN OUR FACE! Okay, im getting a bit irrational here liaoz, dunno if im seeing things in this way cos its MY commitee and im siding it but yar....
I seriously feel that after like one whole long council term, is this the type of friendship that we haf built? Before everything, we were still watching clarence's video and bringing back sweet memories of how we went through events after events together as one. And now, on the day of rehersal for the stepping down of our council, we are having internal conflict? WHAT'S THIS MANZ!!!!
Yurpz, i dunno, but kind of feel realli disappointed to see what happened today, eveyone so segregated back to their own commitees. I tot we are One COuncil, One Voice, One, body, One mind, One soul, AS ONE???? Well mayb all this has proven to be crap after what happened today. Exactly how close are we as one council? I tot we all shld haf learnt to see things in others perspective, be patient with one another and be open to one another? I tink its juz normal for even any person to haf these simple qualities lorz, not mentioning us the council, who are supposedto be exemplary and elite of all. Yar...oni elite in our work and for show to others, within ourselves ~ no. yurpz, juz veri sad to see the friendship in council turn sour.
My words to Andre:
Hey dude, i know u r seriously a very nice guy, juz always too crude wif ur words. I mean its not the first time. U hurt mi and my clan during 01 and said it was a joke. Fine, mayb i was getting too attached and emotional then. But now u r scolding my commitee, in vulgarities. Pls, take notes of ur words, u r not hurting a commitee of people, u r hurting and almost destroying the friendship that we haf built as well. sometimes, not everything said can be simply juz be treated as a joke.
My words to Limei:
Sorrie dear, was realli disappointed to haf heard abt ur comments abt mi during the cheerleading times, I mean I trusted u as a gd friend who share the same views and passion to bring up the cheerleading culture of Nanyang, but u accused mi of saying things about ur team behind ur back and not going direct to u. Well, if i did gif u the impression i did that, or if i did out of irrationality or something, im realli sorrie. I realli dunno what else to say. So many things happened between u and my commitee, its realli hard for mi to take stand sometimes and i believe u noe that i wunt.
To Solico:
We are one council. not juz as commitees. I hope there wunt be grudges between the two commitees. Though today haf realli hurt us deep, let bygons be bygons. Everything, we can sae things out. If u guys think that we are like gossiping and toking back abt each other's commitee outside the SL today, I realli dun mind admitting it. Not that we wan to worsen the situation, but pls try to stand in our shoes to see that we are realli rather pissed off and juz need to throw things out to feel better. If we did make u guys feel wronged in anyway, pls tell us.
And to my dear Aesthec,
Sometimes, we are also too into ourselves, we might also sometime tends to neglect other people's feelings when we tok and offended ppl when we dun noe. I mean as a commitee for so long,I definatly understand that we juz need to say our unjust or our anger out juz to feel better, but sometimes, still have to control abit cos it will definately hurt for whoever hears it and gets affected.But we definately are no push-overs. Although Im always like trying to be the peacemaker and be optimistic about everything that went on,u noe like try to prevent conflicts when possible, but definately will not let aniwan go over our heads too far~ Im still part of Aesthec.
To the whole council,
I hope council will still exist as 1. Juz some thoughts for everyone to ponder upon, 'How deep is your love?' We have definatly did a great job and should be proud of it, but our everlasting journey will not end here, cos the friendship should still be sailing strong against all waves and tides. We have left a legend behind, let it continues and last forever. A star will never be significant in the wide horizon. Its when all the stars comes together to shine against all darkness, then the magestic sight of the galaxy will be appreciated. I luv ya guys lotz~!
Woahz, never wrote such a long blog before, but realli had lots of sentiments about it, cos it definately affects mi great. If not i wunt be sitting here in the middle of the night at 3 plus to put all my feelings down. Haiz...
.:: Chris Feels::.. sad and disappointed(admit im a bit tearing)
p.s I wunt realli expect aniwan to read my blog, but if aniwan does read and realli feels offended, let mi apologise first.
